Weight loss on the 21 Day Fix

My motivation is many things, but in the beginning, I started my weight loss journey so that I could love my body/self. I have since realized that yes, looks matter for self-love and body image and confidence, but I had NO IDEA what noticing small changes, that have nothing to so with looks, would do for my confidence. 

Through the 21 day Fix workouts and supporting nutrition, I have grown an appreciation for all that my body is capable of. I marvel at my feet for holding my balance during yoga. I am impressed by my legs for holding a sumo squat without failing. My arms have held me up when my brain was certain I would fall. My motivation is myself. 

I'm so lucky to have this fully functioning, growing-stronger-each-day body, and I'm finally ready to take care of it, at every stage. Fitness is a mental game too, and I'm there. 21 Day Fix was the right mix to get me started. Now I continue because it FEELS GREAT! I'm not to my magic number, but I know I'll get to a place where my body is healthy, and that's enough for me. 

Me and this body of mine, we got this. Every cell a on board now, we cannot be stopped!

In the throws

All the feels. I am having them. I am frustrated and sad and happy and annoyed and just about feeling like I'm about to burst. I don't know what is going on with me. I feel like a lid has been screwed on. Tight. I think some people call it being an adult. I'm not so sure. I have weird feelings that it's called being a "southern woman." Or, a woman at all... 

I'm supposed to act soft and sweet, and frankly, I'm not. It actually catches me off guard to see in peoples faces just how brash I am. It's funny. And awful. And soul crushing. Like I am most definitely doing everything wrong. Like I am a failure as a female. Which is so wrong. And I know it. But the stupid feels. They are stupid.